A Gray Day...
psalm of despair words evade me this morning, and depression envelopes me as surely as the fog outside hides the sun from my view. loneliness creeps up on silent feet and God seems far away. an imposter- that is how i feel a poser, acting as if my heart is filled with God, yet stumbling along this path alone...alone...alone... how i envy those who seem so sure, so certain of the ways and means of God- for i am not. wise answers evade me and every ounce of energy is required just to keep me on my feet. i hurt for so many people, yet feel shackled by my doubts and fears, my uncertainty. i want to hide my face, as you have hidden yours, O God. i want to stay within my safe, comfortable space and let the world go by. so just for today, Spirit of Comfort, comfort me... hold me safe beneath your wings. wipe away my tears and let me know that weeping is the way in which my heart is washed clean of all the pain and doubt and fear. comfort me, O God, and hold the hand...